Life

Where do I even begin?
You know when you have one point in your life, one point that you wish you could go back to, or even that one point that you wish you could be stuck in forever?
well thats how I feel. aww, so many good times in my life, except for this time right now.
I'm not depressed, but I'm not as happy as I could be.
Sometimes I feel like nothing ever goes right for me, and it probably never will.
I'm so lucky to have the friends I do right now, they have had a huge amount of support for me over this past year.
So thanks guys, I really do appreciate you :)

Old blog from 2008..

Honestly, I'm sick of you.

I'm sick of us, I'm sick of this.

Who knows, maybe it is my own fault, but don't you think its your fault too? Do you not feel the same way? like no matter how many times we try to make this work, it never does, it never will. No matter how bad we want to move on, we can't.

Maybe its because niether one of us wants to be alone. I know thats part of the reason I still see you, and its selfish, I know, but I can't help it. I can't help what I feel, and what I don't. I know I still love you, but this type of love now is completely different, its new, its something that has taken some time to develop, and I'm afraid to say that it will probably never go back to how it use to be.

It saddens me, I mean I use to think you were the one. And you were, just in a different way. You were the one that taught me so many things about relationships, and you also taught me so many things about myself. So for that I thank you, but you also changed me, changes of good, and changes of bad. I'm not as openminded as I once was, and feel as if I can trust no one, not even my closest friends. Maybe it wasnt a change for the bad, it just feels that way.

Obvoiusly they weren't real friends, if they did the things they did, if they were not loyal to me. You should be so lucky to have the friends you do.

But then does that make you unloyal to me as well..? did you not value our friendship, or even more, our relationship? did you really have to be so selfish and not tell me until you felt the need, just to not "lose me" as you so put it, and it wasnt out of courtesy or respect, it was hatred, and anger, you felt the need to hurt me, not be honest with me. Who knows, maybe If I would have never have pushed you so far, you would of never have told me..

yeah that sounds about right.

"Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me."
Being betrayed once is all it takes for some people, but I did give you many chances after that. Many chances to hurt me so many other times. Maybe it was my own stupidty, or maybe it was your selfishness, who knows?

I just want to find someone who is true to themselves, but most importantly, someone who is true to me.

Maybe one day you will change, not that I want you too, or think you should.

You are who you are after all..
and I dont expect you to be anyone else.

Kiss me, I'm Irish!

I decided that I should probably put up some pictures from St. Patty's Day.
No green beer this year, but next year should be a blast :)

I got the coolest glasses from Walgreens. Just take a look!
Best $3 I have EVER spent.

Jawden's Birthday!

So last Friday 03/05/2010, I attended Jordan's birthday party aka White Trash Bash. You were suppose to dress up, and be as trashy as possible. As you'll be able to see only some dressed up. Regardless it was still a blast! Happy Birthday Jawden! I hope it was a great one :)
ANYWAYS, here are some of the MANY pictures taken that night, enjoy!

The Birthday Girl

& Her Cake

I love these girls!